"I TOLD YOU TO STOP BOTHERING YOUR HAIR "...... LOL

 IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I DID NOT POST ANY THING ABOUT MY SISTER 'S HAIR.
I AM STILL THE ONE WHO IS DOING IT SOMETIMES BUT MY SISTER IS  MORE LAZY THAN ME WHEN IT COMES TO TAKE CARE OF HER HAIR.

 I LIKE TO EXPERIMENT SOME HAIRSTYLES AND TECHNICS ON HER BECAUSE I HAVE A VERY DIFFICULT TIME TO DO IT ON ME.

NOVEMBER 2012

NOVEMBER 2014

MOST OF THE TIME SHE ASKED ME TO JUST BRAID OR COLOUR IT ( SHE HAS MORE GREEN HAIR THAN ME...HA ! HA! HA ! ) AND SHE KEPT IT FOR 6 WEEKS WITH A 2 WEEKS CO WASH  BREAK AND THAT'S IT.

NOVEMBER 2012

NOVEMBER 2014

SHE IS ONLY APPLYING CASTOR OIL WHEN SHE WASHED IT AND OF COURSE SHE IS WEARING BANDANNA ALL THE TIME.

NO ITCHING PROBLEMS  LIKE ME.... SHE JUST LEAVE IT ALONE. AND GUESS WHAT SHE HAS BETTER RESULT THAN ME ........
SO SO UNFAIR . LOL

NOVEMBER 2014

NOVEMBER 2014

YOU KNOW HOW I LOOOOVE DOING A HAIR  ESPECIALLY BECAUSE OF THE TEXTURE.
PLUS   COMPARE TO MINE, HER HAIR  ARE GROWING WHEN SHE IS NOT EVEN DOING ANYTHING SPECIAL. SHE IS SO LUCKY.

NOVEMBER 2012

NOVEMBER 2014

LAST WEEK  SHE ASKED ME  TO BLOW DRY HER HAIR AND TO MAKE JUT 8 BIG  FLAT BRAIDS THAT SHE INTEND TO KEEP AT LEAST UNTIL CHRISTMAS.
 AS USUAL WITH  A VERY  LOW MAINTENANCE.

I AM HAPPY FOR HER BUT SOMETIME   I AM MAD BECAUSE SHE CAN'T DO MY HAIR PROPERLY OR EXACTLY THE WAY I AM DOING HERS AND THAT'S NOT VERY FAIR BECAUSE  AFTER ALL SHE IS BENEFICING OF "  MY MAGIC TOUCH ".! LOL

NOVEMBER 2012

NOVEMBER 2014

 WHEN I TRIED TO EXPLAIN TO HER MY FEELINGS,  SHE IS JUST LAUGH AT ME AND SAID TO ME ALL THE TIME :
 " I TOLD YOU TO STOP BOTHERING YOUR HAIR. LOOK AT ME I AM DOING LESS THAN YOU AND I HAVE BETTER RESULTS."

AND I THINK SHE IS RIGHT SOMETIMES LESS IS THE BEST. BY THE WAY I THINK I HEARD THAT BEFORE.... MMMMMMMM..... LOL

" TOOK THEM OFF AND TRIMMED THEM "

I HAD ENOUGH WITH MY MINI LOCKS SO I TOOK THEM OFF AND I ALSO TRIMMED MY  ENDINGS  BECAUSE THEY WERE QUITE DAMAGED. I DON' T THINK THAT I WILL DO IT AGAIN.

 THE DETANGLING PROCESS WAS SCARY BECAUSE I THINK I LOST TOO MUCH HAIR. THE SHRINKAGE AGAIN IS VERY  OBVIOUS BUT NOW I DON'T CARE ANY MORE.
 I JUST WANTED MY HAIR FREE.

 IT TOOK ME  THE ALL DAY TO TAKE THEM OFF AND MY ARMS  WERE PAINFUL AT THE END.
THEN I HAD TO  SATURATE MY HAIR WITH SOME COCONUT OIL PLUS A CONDITIONER  SO I COULD  BRUSH AND COMB MY HAIR BEFORE WASHING IT.

WHEN I RINSED,  IT  WAS MORE EASIER FOR ME TO MANAGE BUT I HAD SO MUCH SPLIT ENDS THAT  I DID 4 BRAIDS AND CUT MY HAIR.
 I THINK SERIOUSLY TO GO TO A PROFESSIONAL HAIRSTYLIST FOR  IT.

 NEAR MY HOUSE THERE ONE SO I NEED TO CHECK BUT I AM NOT TRUSTING ANYBODY  WITH MY HAIR EXCEPT MY MUM OR MY SISTER ,
 THE LAST TIME I WENT TO A SALON IT WAS 20 YEARS AGO.!!!! YES IT HAS BEEN A LONG TIME. LOL

I ALSO INTEND TO MAKE A PROFESSIONAL  BLOW DRY AND FLAT IRON ON MY HAIR   IN ORDER TO HAVE A REAL IDEA OF MY LENGTH. THE SHRINKAGE CAN BE DEPRESSING SOMETIMES.

 I HAVE ONE WEEK OFF SO MY HAIR WILL REST AND I WILL LET MY SISTER MAKE NEW BRAIDS BUT THIS TIME A LITTLE BIT THICKER.
AUTUMN IS THERE SO IT IS PROTECTIVE STYLES FOR A GOOD GOOD TIME. LOL

" ALMA " AND THE " SWING OF CHANGE "

 IT 'S BEEN TWO WEEKS NOW THAT I AM BACK TO WORK AND I AM QUITE HAPPY THAT IT WASN'T THAT HARD FOR ME AFTER 5 MORE WEEKS OF REST.

THE KIDS WERE FANTASTIC AND SO HAPPY TO SEE ME  BACK.
IT WAS SO STRANGE FOR ME ESPECIALLY THAT I AM VERY STRICT WITH THEM.
BUT  IT IS NICE TO FEEL MISSED. LOL.

Sorry for my sister she is always on my background. LOL

THE NEW STUDENTS I WORK  WITH ARE QUITE SEVERE BUT I THINK THAT THEY WILL FIND THEM ANOTHER  SPECIAL SCHOOL MORE ADAPTED TO THEIR NEEDS. THAT'S  SAD BECAUSE THEY ARE VERY NICE TO ME.

WHICH BRING ME TO AN ENGLISH  LESSON THAT I HAD ON MONDAY ABOUT THE GOTHIC GENRE. SO THE TEACHER JUST MADE US WATCH THIS ANIMATED MOVIE TITLED " ALMA "  AND I JUST FOUND  IT BRILLIANT.
BECAUSE IT IS VERY SHORT ( 5 MIN ) I WILL NOT MAKE A SUMMERY. JUST WATCH!

BUT I COULD EASILY  FIND MYSELF IN THAT KIND OF SITUATION WHEN YOU ARE JUST AMAZED / FASCINATED BY YOUR OWN REFLECTION,  THROUGH A PICTURE ESPECIALLY WHEN I HAD TO CHOOSE ONE FOR ILLUSTRATING A POST.

IT IS SOMETIMES DIFFICULT BECAUSE I AM LIKE..... WHICH ONE IS THE BEST ? OR THIS ONE IS JUST  PERFECT ?  IS IT REALLY ME ? LOL  ( YES I HAVE A HIGH OPINION OF MYSELF... LOL).
THANKFULLY  FOR ME WHEN I CHOOSE  A  PICTURE NOTHING STRANGE HAPPENS LIKE BEING ABSORBED AND TRAPPED   BY THE COMPUTER. ( SORRY FOR THE SPOILED ALERT! ).

MY SECOND CHOICE IS NAMED " SWING OF  CHANGE "  (6 MIN)  AND I  DEDICATE  IT  ESPECIALLY  TO JAZZ WIFE  FROM  SLIMWAVY 'S BLOG. I HOPE SHE WILL APPRECIATE IT.

I CHOOSE ALSO THIS ONE BECAUSE HERE IN THE UK THIS IS BLACK HISTORY MONTH  AND  ALL THE LESSONS  DURING  OCTOBER WILL BE  FOCUS AND ADAPTED  ON IT.

THIS ANIMATED MOVIE  IS SO AWESOME AND SO DEEP  FOR ME  BECAUSE IT  ILLUSTRATES  HOW THE SEGREGATION WAS IN AMERICA AND HOW SOMETIMES ART ESPECIALLY MUSIC CAN CHANGE PEOPLE MINDS AND PERCEPTIONS.

MUSIC HAS  SUCH AN IMPACT ON PEOPLE THAT IT CAN INFLUENCE BAD OR GOOD ( IN THIS CASE ) ANYONE OR ANY SITUATION.

I CAN SPEAK FOR  MYSELF. WHEN I AM  SAD I JUST PUT  SOME MUSIC AND I FEEL BETTER. SOME SONGS MADE ME THINK AND RECONSIDER  MY WAY OF SEEING THINGS.

YES ! MUSIC IS POWERFUL NEVER UNDERESTIMATE ITS INFLUENCE.
THE SWING OF CHANGE IS REAL FOLKS  AND IT CAN TOUCH ANYBODY.

STYLING MY LOCKS AND FIGHTING MY FEARS.

 THIS IS MY LAST WEEK OF " REST" SO I WANT TO PROFIT A MAXIMUM OF IT.
 I STILL HAVE  MY LOCKS BUT I THINK THAT I WILL TAKE THEM OFF BECAUSE  I AM BORED WITH THE STYLE.

 I THOUGHT THAT I WILL  KEEP THEM UNTIL DECEMBER  BUT I GOT THE IMPRESSION THAT THE DETANGLING PROCESS WILL BE VERY DIFFICULT AND PAINFUL.
I AM AFRAID THAT I WILL CUT OR LOOSE  A LOT OF HAIR.
EVEN IF I DID ENJOY THE  HAIRSTYLE I THINK THAT TO GET BACK  TO WORK I NEED TO HAVE MY HAIR IN  A SCARF OR JUST 2 BRAIDS SO I WILL DO A LOT OF DEEP CONDITIONINGS BEFORE  THE WINTER IS COMING. I WANT TO DO IT EACH WEEK.

I AM NOT TOO  EXCITED TO GO BACK  TO WORK BUT I AM HAPPY TO HAVE  MY HOLIDAY  (5 WEEKS)  BACK BECAUSE ALL MY SUMMER HOLIDAYS (5 WEEKS) WERE SPENT  AT ORGANISING  MY DAD'S FUNERAL AND I  DON'T NEED TO TALK ABOUT  ALL THE FAMILY DRAMA... I WAS LIKE REALLY DRAINED FROM INSIDE.  NOW I START TO FEEL MORE BETTER, THANKS GOD.

WITH THIS HAIR STYLE I TRY TO DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT AND SIMPLE. SO I USED 3 BOBBY PEENS TO TIDE THE BACK OF MY HAIR AND  BRING THE LOCKS AT THE FRONT TO MAKE A BANGLE. AND THAT'S IT. LOL
BECAUSE IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE THAT I HAVE LOCKS IT 'S MORE LIKE  MY HAIR ARE
CURLY.

IN ANOTHER SUBJECT,  I HAVE NEW RESOLUTIONS SINCE MY DAD DIED. THE MAIN ONE IS  TO  TAKE SOME ACTIONS, IN FACT I NEED TO FIGHT SOME OF THE FEARS THAT I HAVE.  AND THERE ARE PLENTY.  I WILL TRY ......
NO I WILL USE THESE ADVICES FROM PASTOR SAM ADEYEMI. I LOVE IS EXPLANATION:

For you to be able to take action you must overcome 

fear.
Fear paralyses initiative,kills the imagination,stops us from 
moving,kills initiatives.
Fear kills enthusiasm
Fear destroys self-control.
Do what fear said you should not do.
Fear is dangerous.
If you try nothing you will achieve absolutely nothing.
Fear breeds procrastination
The fear of failure is one of the greatest guarantees of failure in this world.
It is not a crime to fail.
There is the fear of failure
There is the fear of rejection
You must kill fear;you must deal with fear
Fear creates big doubt
we must break free from the hold of fear.
Do what you fear and the death of fear is certain

 SAM ADEYEMI

HIDING LOCKS AND HIDING MYSELF

HIDING IS WHAT I AM DOING RIGHT NOW.

IT'S BEEN ALMOST 3 WEEKS NOW THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN TO WORK.
 I ONLY WORKED LIKE 2 DAY SINCE THE BEGINNING OF THE SCHOOL.

I SUDDENLY DID NOT FELT WELL IN MY HEAD. I COULDN'T SLEEP. IT WAS SO BAD THAT I HAVE TO CALL THEM AND TOLD THEM I WAS IN A VERY BAD MOOD SINCE MY DAD DIED.

I WENT TO MY GP AND HE GAVE ME FIRST 2 WEEKS BUT BEFORE THE END  I STARTED TO FEEL MORE PAIN IN MY TUMMY SO I WENT BACK AND MY GP GAVE ME 3 MORE WEEKS.   MY FIBROIDS PAINS STARTED AGAIN JUST WHEN I CAME BACK.
SO BASICALLY I HAD 5 WEEKS FOR SICKNESS.

MY HOLIDAY WERE FOR 5 WEEKS.AND I SPEND 4 WEEKS IN CAMEROON. SO I AM HAPPY BECAUSE I HAD THEM BACK .....  THANK YOU GOD.

I NEED TO STAY AT HOME AND JUST RELAX.
 I THINK THE DEATH OF MY DAD DID AFFECT ME MORE THAN I THOUGH.
 PLUS IT WASN'T REALLY HOLIDAY FOR ME BECAUSE I SPENT ALL THE  TIME TO ORGANISE THE FUNERAL. PLUS WITH ALL THE DRAMA SURROUNDINGS THE ORGANISATION   (YOU NEED TO THINK ABOUT THE TRADITIONAL  ASPECT OF THE EVENT).

I DON'T FEEL THE NEED TO DO ANYTHING. EVEN  WITH  MY HAIR IT IS EASY BECAUSE I HAVE LOCKS BUT TO BE HONEST YOU CAN'T SEE THEM .LOL

SERIOUSLY IT'S LIKE THEY HIDING. I HOPE I WILL BE ABLE TO KEEP THEM  UNTIL DECEMBER ..... BUT WITH MY HAIR I DON'T KNOW.
 AND I HAVE ANOTHER PROBLEM HOW I WILL BE ABLE TO " UN-LOCK THEM" I NEED NOW TO LOOK AT SOME TUTORIALS BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO BREAK MY HAIR WHEN THAT TIME WILL HAPPEN.

SO ME AND MY LOCKS ARE HIDING FROM PEOPLE AND I THINK THAT'S COOL BECAUSE WE REALLY NEED TO REST.LOL

MY HAIR FOR THE FUNERAL

 BECAUSE MY DAD DIED 4 DAYS AFTER MY ARRIVAL I  HAD TO CHANGE MY PLAN FOR  THE WHOLE HOLIDAY.

 FOR ME IT WAS JUST THAT I HAD TO BURY HIM LIKE QUICKLY ( 2 WEEKS MAYBE?????/)  DON'T LAUGH I WANTED JUST TO AVOID THINKING ABOUT IT TOO MUCH.

PLUS MOST OF THE TIME WHEN I AM GOING TO SHOPPING I KNOW WHAT I WANT TO SPEND AND BUY. BUT FOR FUNERAL ................
IT IS NOT THE SAME THING ESPECIALLY WHEN MY DAD HAD MADE SOME SUGGESTIONS THAT WE MUST  FOLLOW WITHOUT DISCUSSION..

MY LITTLE NIECE MADE THEM IN ONE HOUR.

IN CAMEROON FUNERAL INVOLVE THE WHOLE FAMILY AND BELIEVE ME IT IS HUGE.
AS WOMEN WE HAVE TO FOLLOW SOME RESTRICTION ESPECIALLY THE HAIR. TECHNICALLY I MUST HAVE CUT OR SHAVE MY HEAD ( ONLY THE WIDOW AND THE DAUGHTERS ).

I HOPE SOMEBODY WILL BE ABLE TO TELL ME  MY REAL TEXTURE.

I DIDN'T WANT TO BUT THEY TOLD ME THAT I CAN WEAR A HAIRSTYLE WHICH WILL NOT REQUIRE A FASHION STYLE.
SO MUST OF THE WOMEN WHEN THEY DON'T WANT TO CUT THEIR HAIR, THEY JUST BRAID IT AND COVER  WITH A TRADITIONAL SCARF,

YOU HAVE TO DO IT AT LEAST 6 MONTHS. I OPTED FOR LOCKS. BECAUSE I KNOW THAT IT WILL BE EASY TO KEEP THEM 6 MONTHS.

THE PROBLEM IT'S THAT I JUST REALISED  THAT MY HAIR ARE NOT 4C SO TO OBTAIN GOOD LOCKS WILL BE DIFFICULT.

 IN THE BEGINNING,  IT WAS OK BUT THE MORE I WASH  MY HAIR  , THE MORE I REALISE THAT I CAN'T NOT LOCK IT PROPERLY.
NEVER MIND I WILL MANAGE TO KEEP IT THAT WAY THE BEST I CAN.

 AT THE END IT IS ABOUT HONOURING MY DAD.

I PLAN TO USE CASTOR OIL,  LEAVE IN CONDITIONER  AND SHEA BUTTER. I ALSO WILL ESSENTIALLY CO WASH IT.
 OF COURSE I CAN GO TO YOUTUBE TO LEARN HOW TO MAINTAIN MY  FRAGILE LOCKS.

BUT I REALLY NEED TO KNOW MY REAL TEXTURE. AGAIN I AM A LITTLE BIT LOST.

AFTER THE FIRST CO WASH MY SHRINKAGE AT ITS  BEST.LOL

AUREVOIR ET MERCI PAPA

I WAS 12 AND IT WAS MY FIRST COMMUNION.

MAYBE THE MOST DIFFICULT POST I EVER HAVE TO  WRITE BUT I THINK I NEED TO . 

YES I AM BACK FROM HOLIDAY .........WELL HELL-LIDAY BECAUSE AS SOON I ARRIVED IN YAOUNDE THE 21 ST AUGUST MY DAD DIED THE 25 TH AT HOME IN MY ARMS. 

I WAS PLANNING PROPER VACATION/EXCURSION  AND EVERYTHING BUT I HAD TO STOP AND ONLY CONCENTRATE ON THE PREPARATIONS OF HIS FUNERAL.
IT WASN'T EASY BECAUSE I WANTED TO DO THINGS SIMPLY BUT IN AFRICA YOU HAVE TO FOLLOW SOME TRADITIONS AND DARE TO AVOID THEM YOU WILL BE IN A VERY BIG TROUBLE.

BEFORE DYING I HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO TALK AND EAT WITH MY DAD. YES WE SHARE WITH MY SISTER HIS LAST MEAL THAT I COOKED. A LOT OF PEOPLE TOLD ME THAT THAT IT WAS A BENEDICTION. I DON'T KNOW BUT TO BE HONEST I JUST DON'T CARE. IT WASN'T SUPPOSE TO BE THAT WAY.

MY FATHER WOKE ME UP IN THE MORNING AND ASKED ME TO LET HIM SEAT ON A CHAIR DESPITE THE FACT THAT HE WAS SO WEAK, I JUST DID AND HE STARTED TO SNORE VERY LOUDLY DURING THAT TIME I WAS PRAYING AND SINGING. I WAS HOLDING HIM IN MY ARMS SO HE COULDN'T FALL OVER.

PAPA ET MAMAN  WITH  MY UNCLE AND AUNTIE.

MY MUM  KEPT SAYING TO ME  ; "LOOK AT HIM HE IS LEAVING US, CAN'T YOU SEE?"..... NO I COULDN'T SEE BECAUSE I DID NOT WANT TO SEE.... SIMPLE.
AFTER ONE HOUR AND HALF THE SNORING BECAME LESS AND LESS LOUDER SO I DECIDED TO MOVE HIM NEXT TO THE WINDOW SO WE CAN AT LEAST SHAVE HIM, A REQUEST FROM MY MUM.

 I HOLD HIS HEAD  WHILE ONE OF MY MALE  COUSIN SHAVED HIM. WHEN HE FINISHED I REALISED THAT MY DAD WASN'T MAKING ANY NOISE WITH HIS MOUTH AND SEEMED TO BE JUST SLEEPY. THEN I KNOW THAT HE WAS DEFINITIVELY DEAD. HE DIED IN HIS SLEEP VERY PEACEFULLY.

I COULD HAVE WROTE ABOUT HIM A LONG TIME AGO ( I THINK I DID ) BUT TO BE HONEST WHY?  PLUS MY DAD STIPULATED THAT WHEN HE DIED HE  DIDN'T WANT ANY TESTIMONY ABOUT HIM.

HIS PHILOSOPHY WAS THAT HE YOU WANT TO SAY SOMETHING BAD OR GOOD SAY IT WHEN THE PERSON IS ALIVE. THAT'S WHY HIS FUNERAL WAS A HUGE PARTY WHEN I  WILL RECEIVE THE VIDEO I WILL TRY TO POST THEM.

THE DAY BEFORE HE DIED WE WERE 4 PEOPLE IN MY PARENTS BEDROOM, MY DAD,  MY MUM, MY SISTER AND ME. I TOLD THEM HOW IT WAS STRANGE THAT WE WERE THE FOURTH OF THE FAMILY TO CAME IN FRANCE AND BORN IN CAMEROON.
YES, IN FACT MY DAD CAME FIRST IN FEBRUARY 1971 AND WE FOLLOWED MY SISTER AND ME (  WE WERE 2 AND 1 YEARS OLD ) WITH MUMMY A YEAR LATER. SO OUR FAMILY STARTED WE US IN FRANCE. AND THE LAST NIGHT DADDY WAS AGAIN WITH US.
  IT 'S LIKE CLOSING ONE  CIRCLE OF  OUR  FAMILY LIFE I THINK.

MY PARENTS AND THEIR 3 DAUGHTERS AND 7 SONS WE WERE ALL AT HIS FUNERAL IN CAMEROON. THEY HAD TO COME URGENTLY. I THINK HE WAS HAPPY BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT HE ASKED IN HIS WILL THAT WE MUST ALL BE THERE.

HE WAS 70 YEARS OLD AND DIABETIC FOR 45 YEARS , THE LAST 7 YEARS WERE VERY PAINFUL FOR HIM. HE ALWAYS TOLD US THAT HE WANTED TO GO, SO IT'S  QUITE UNDERSTANDABLE BUT IT HURTS SO BAD, SO SO BAD.

AUREVOIR ET MERCI PAPA.