MY DAD' S WILL AND MY WILL ....

THIS WEEK I AM ON HOLIDAY IT IS HALF TERM. I REALLY NEED TO HAVE THIS BREAK. I WAS EVEN STARTING  TO FEEL SLEEPING DURING LESSONS. LOL

FINALLY MY MUM WILL NOT COME TO LONDON BECAUSE SHE WANTS TO GO BACK QUICKLY TO CAMEROON TO SUPERVISE HER BUSINESS. WE ARE INTO FARMING.

 IN FACT SHE NEEDS ALSO TO GET AN OPERATION ON ONE OF HER KNEE IN PARIS THEN SHE WILL BE BACK TO CAMEROON WITH MY LITTLE SISTER. I THINK THAT SHE PREFER TO STAY THERE BECAUSE OF MY DAD AND SHE IS VERY BUSY SO SHE DOES NOT HAVE TO THINK ABOUT THE PAST.

WHEN ONE OF YOUR PARENT DIED YOU NEVER THINK ABOUT SOME ISSUES THAT YOU WILL FACE LIKE THE EXECUTION OF THE WILL ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU ARE A WOMAN AND DOESN'T HAVE CHILDREN.

SUDDENLY YOU HAVE TO ASSURE THE MEN ( I HAVE 7 BROTHERS )  THAT IF YOU DIE ( YES NOW I NEED TO THINK ABOUT MY OWN DEATH !!!!) WHO IS GOING TO END UP WITH  YOUR  OWN  LAND.

MY BROTHERS WANTED ME TO ASSURE THEM THAT MY PART WILL STAY IN THE FAMILY. I WAS QUITE SHOCKED BECAUSE  THIS KIND OF THINGS NEVER REALLY CROSSED MY MIND.

ANYWAY I STAYED VERY CALM AND TOLD THEM THAT WHAT I AM DOING WITH MY OWN LAND IT IS NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS ALIVE OR DEAD.

I USED TO SEE   FAMILIES FIGHTING OVER THE WILL  IN MOVIES AND REAL LIFE BUT IT NEVER OCCURS TO ME THAT I WILL ONE DAY BE ON THIS SITUATION ESPECIALLY BECAUSE MY SIBLINGS AND I WE ARE VERY CLOSED.

 FOR THE MOMENT THEY SEEMED TO GOT THE MESSAGE SO WE WILL SEE  ........

I DO NOT MANIPULATE MY HAIR  NOW BECAUSE I KEEP MY BRAIDS 4 WEEKS THEN I TOOK THEM OFF AND LET IT REST 2 WEEKS, THEN I AM ON MY BRAIDS FOR ANOTHER  4 WEEKS.

IT IS DURING  THIS BREAK THAT I TRIED SOME HAIRSTYLES BUT TO BE HONEST THE RESULTS ARE NOT CLOSE TO WHAT I WANT TO ACHIEVE.
IN THIS CASE  BUT IT'S  FUN ESPECIALLY WHEN I TRIED MY PURPLE MAKE UP.

 I AM ADDICTED TO MAKE UP TUTORIALS ON YOUTUBE. THE FUNNY THING IS WHEN I WAS VERY MUCH YOUNGER,  I WAS ANTI MAKE UP. I   SAID TO MYSELF THAT IT IS ONLY AT  40 THAT WE MUST  START TO PUT MAKE UP.

SO NOW IT IS THE TIME FOR ME. LOL  ( I KNOW I WAS STRANGE BUT I KEPT THIS  RESOLUTION, THE ONLY ONE THAT I ACTUALLY APPLIED)

IT IS LIKE MY DAD, I MADE  A WILL   WHEN I WAS IN MY TWENTIES BECAUSE I KNEW THEY  WILL BE GONE.

SORRY FOR THE WAIT AND "J ' ATTENDRAI" WITH DALIDA

I KNOW IT'S BEEN NOW LIKE A MONTH THAT I  DID NOT POST SOMETHING.
 I HAVE A LOT OF EXCUSES BUT IT IS TOO LONG TO EXPLAIN. THE  MOST IMPORTANT ARE THAT I WAS SICK AND MY INTERNET ROUTER WAS COMPLETELY OUT AND I HAVE TO ORDER ANOTHER ONE.

THEN I HAD TO INSTALL IT AND IT DID NOT WORK PROPERLY FOR LIKE A WEEK. SO I HAD TO CALL MY PROVIDER AND ARGUE NON STOP  WITH THEM TO SEND ME A TECHNICIAN FOR FREE BECAUSE IT WASN'T MY FAULT IF THE INTERNET CONNECTION WAS CONSTANTLY OFF.

THEY TOLD ME THAT IT WILL COST ME £ 65 ( HELL NO! ). THEY ALSO ADVICE ME TO OPEN THE PHONE SOCKET WHICH I REFUSED.?????? AT ONE POINT I WANTED TO CANCEL MY SUBSCRIPTION BUT TOO MUCH HUSTLE SO I JUST HAD TO WAIT AND REPEAT THE INSTALMENT OVER AND OVER.
 THEN TWO DAYS AFTER MY FIRST ATTEMPT I SUCCEEDED TO OBTAIN A CONNECTION. WHOOAH AT LAST ! LOL

MY MUM IS IN FRANCE NOW AND SHE CALLED ME THAT  SHE WANTS TO COME TO LIVE WITH ME SOME FEW MONTHS BECAUSE SHE FEEL DEPRESSED ( MY DAD DIED 7 MONTH AGO ) WITH MY BROTHERS.
THEY ARE VERY BUSY AND SHE STAYING THE ALL DAY   INSIDE CRYING.  SO I THINK THAT IT IS THE BEST THING TO DO.

 I NEED TO PASS MY DRIVING TEST. YES NOW I HAVE TO. LOL MY MUM  FEELS TO MUCH PAIN IN HER LEGS WHEN SHE HAS TO WALK A LOT. SO I NEED TO ORGANISE ALL. I AM WAITING FOR MY MUM TO CAME BACK IN ENGLAND. LIKE WE SAID IN FRENCH.........

 " J ' ATTENDRAI" ( 1976 ) WHICH MEAN  " I WILL WAIT " ( LUCKY YOU ! I AM TEACHING YOU SOME FRENCH . LOL)
THIS SENTENCE REMIND ME A LOVELY SONG THAT I USED TO SING WHEN I WAS A CHILD IN FRANCE.
IT WAS SUNG BY A  VERY FAMOUS FEMALE SINGER "DALIDA".
PEOPLE FROM EUROPE, MIDDLE EAST OR AFRICA KNOW WHO DALIDA WAS.

 SHE WAS  A HUGE STAR  IN FRANCE. SHE HAD A VERY LONG CAREER LIKE 30 YEARS. SHE HAD HER  FIRST HIT IN 1957  WITH  "BAMBINO" BUT SHE COMMIT SUICIDE IN 1987 AND AT THAT TIME SHE WAS STILL SUCCESSFUL BUT SHE FELT  ALONE SO THAT'S IT...SO SO SAD.

LOVE LOVE THAT WOMAN SHE WAS SO CLASSY THE WAY SHE CARRIED HERSELF BUT ESPECIALLY  HER FASHION STYLE EVEN TODAY I WISH I COULD BUY OR WEAR THE KIND OF DRESSES THAT SHE WAS WEARING. SHE MADE SUCH A HUGE IMPRESSION ON ME WHEN I WAS A CHILD.

JUST  LOVE  HER  TIME LESS ELEGANCE. I MISS THIS KIND OF  FEMALE PERFORMER. SHE WAS UNIQUE.
I HOPE YOU WILL ENJOY THE SONG EVEN IF IT IS IN FRENCH.

SHE IS SINGING THAT SHE WILL WAIT NIGHT AND DAY SHE WILL WAIT HER LOVER RETURN ENDLESSLY DESPITE THE FACT THAT SHE IS SAD BUT SHE KNOWS THAT A BIRD NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS OR WHERE IT FLIES IT WILL COME BACK TO ITS NEST.
SO " J 'ATTENDRAI " WITH  DALIDA  MY MUM  NIGHTS AND DAYS.

 

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015 EVERYBODY

THIS IS A VERY QUICK POST TO SAY FIRST MERRY CHRISTMAS  TO YOU   AND HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015 TO EVERYONE WHO PASSED BY .
 I JUST THANK YOU VERY MUCH TO GIVE ME SOME OF YOUR EXTRA TIME AND SWEET ATTENTION DURING ALL THE YEAR 2014. LOL  !

  I KNOW I AM LATE BUT I HAVE THE FLU AND I CAN'T EVEN LEAVE MY BED.
YES! IT IS THAT BAD. SO WE WILL SEE NEXT YEAR WHEN I WILL BE IN BETTER HEALTH. SORRY GUYS !

TAKE CARE AND MAY GOD BLESSED YOU THIS YEAR IN EVERY ASPECT OF YOUR LIFE.

FROM MINA- SICK SICK SICK ....LOL

IT IS NOT JUST A NEW RESOLUTION, IT IS A PERMANENT DECISION !

I WAS  OFF SICK AGAIN BECAUSE OF  THIS DAM FIBROIDS  THE PAIN WAS SO STRONG THAT I  HAD TO STAY IN MY BED FOR MOST THAN A WEEK.

THEY GAVE ME STRONGER  MEDICATION SO NOW I AM FEELING BETTER. I COULD BE ABLE TO GET BACK TO WORK ON FRIDAY BUT THE REAL TEST WILL BE NEXT MONTH DURING MY PERIOD.
YES THIS WHEN THE PAIN IS OUT OF CONTROL. I  AM TRYING  TO BE POSITIVE AND NOT THINKING  ABOUT IT.

CHRISTMAS AND  NEW YEAR EVE  ARE COMING AND FOR ME IT WAS SO QUICK  MAYBE BECAUSE I LOST MY DAD  BUT NEXT YEAR MY MUM WILL COME AND STAY FEW MONTHS WITH ME HERE IN LONDON.

BECAUSE MY SISTER'S  HAIR  IS DOING WELL WITH A MINIMUM OF INTERVENTION (LOOK AT MY LAST POST) I  PROMISE MYSELF TO DO THE SAME THINGS.
SO SINCE NOW JUST CO-WASHING  EVERY 2 WEEKS,  CASTOR OIL TREATMENT  AND BRAIDS AFTER  FOR  6 WEEKS.

 TO BE HONEST I AM STARTING TO GET BORED BY ALL MY FAILED ATTEMPTS TO TRY NEW HAIRSTYLES OR  OIL/ HERBS TREATMENT ... LOL
I STOPPED BEEN WORRIED ABOUT THE LENGTH TOO BECAUSE  I ALSO HAVE A DIFFICULTY TO EVEN MAKE A PERFECT BUN. ( I AM NOT JAZZWIFE..LOL)

PLUS ALSO AT SCHOOL A STUDENT TOLD ME THAT SHE LIKES THE WAY I WAS TAKING CARE OF MY HAIR  "WITHOUT TOO MUCH DRAMA"???? ACCORDING TO HER. SO NOW SHE JUST CUT OFF  HER HAIR SHORT.

SHE TOLD ME NO MORE WIGS BECAUSE SHE USED TO WORE THEM. SHE ALSO TOLD ME THAT SHE WILL PROBABLY WEAR BRAIDS WITH EXTENSION  IN THE FUTURE WHEN HER HAIR WILL BE A LITTLE BIT LONGER.

I WAS SO SURPRISED THAT SHE WANTED TO DO HER HAIR THIS WAY BECAUSE O F ME.
IT IS FUNNY YOU MAY THINK THAT WHAT YOU HAVE OR DO HAS NOT SO MUCH IMPACT  BUT GUESS WHAT THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE THAT CAN BE INSPIRED.

THAT'S WHY I SHOULD ACCEPT MY HAIR  ( MY WHOLE BODY) THE WAY IT IS WITHOUT WORRIES AND ESPECIALLY WITHOUT ANY  COMPARISON...

I WILL JUST TAKE CARE OF IT IN A HEALTHY WAY....LOL

Father God, I Thank you for being fearfully and wonderfully made. Thank you for taking your time to design me exactly the way You wanted me to be! Forgive me Father for allowing the opinion of other to cause me to want to alter what you the creator has purposely design. 
Thank You Jesus! AMEN !

"I TOLD YOU TO STOP BOTHERING YOUR HAIR "...... LOL

 IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I DID NOT POST ANY THING ABOUT MY SISTER 'S HAIR.
I AM STILL THE ONE WHO IS DOING IT SOMETIMES BUT MY SISTER IS  MORE LAZY THAN ME WHEN IT COMES TO TAKE CARE OF HER HAIR.

 I LIKE TO EXPERIMENT SOME HAIRSTYLES AND TECHNICS ON HER BECAUSE I HAVE A VERY DIFFICULT TIME TO DO IT ON ME.

NOVEMBER 2012

NOVEMBER 2014

MOST OF THE TIME SHE ASKED ME TO JUST BRAID OR COLOUR IT ( SHE HAS MORE GREEN HAIR THAN ME...HA ! HA! HA ! ) AND SHE KEPT IT FOR 6 WEEKS WITH A 2 WEEKS CO WASH  BREAK AND THAT'S IT.

NOVEMBER 2012

NOVEMBER 2014

SHE IS ONLY APPLYING CASTOR OIL WHEN SHE WASHED IT AND OF COURSE SHE IS WEARING BANDANNA ALL THE TIME.

NO ITCHING PROBLEMS  LIKE ME.... SHE JUST LEAVE IT ALONE. AND GUESS WHAT SHE HAS BETTER RESULT THAN ME ........
SO SO UNFAIR . LOL

NOVEMBER 2014

NOVEMBER 2014

YOU KNOW HOW I LOOOOVE DOING A HAIR  ESPECIALLY BECAUSE OF THE TEXTURE.
PLUS   COMPARE TO MINE, HER HAIR  ARE GROWING WHEN SHE IS NOT EVEN DOING ANYTHING SPECIAL. SHE IS SO LUCKY.

NOVEMBER 2012

NOVEMBER 2014

LAST WEEK  SHE ASKED ME  TO BLOW DRY HER HAIR AND TO MAKE JUT 8 BIG  FLAT BRAIDS THAT SHE INTEND TO KEEP AT LEAST UNTIL CHRISTMAS.
 AS USUAL WITH  A VERY  LOW MAINTENANCE.

I AM HAPPY FOR HER BUT SOMETIME   I AM MAD BECAUSE SHE CAN'T DO MY HAIR PROPERLY OR EXACTLY THE WAY I AM DOING HERS AND THAT'S NOT VERY FAIR BECAUSE  AFTER ALL SHE IS BENEFICING OF "  MY MAGIC TOUCH ".! LOL

NOVEMBER 2012

NOVEMBER 2014

 WHEN I TRIED TO EXPLAIN TO HER MY FEELINGS,  SHE IS JUST LAUGH AT ME AND SAID TO ME ALL THE TIME :
 " I TOLD YOU TO STOP BOTHERING YOUR HAIR. LOOK AT ME I AM DOING LESS THAN YOU AND I HAVE BETTER RESULTS."

AND I THINK SHE IS RIGHT SOMETIMES LESS IS THE BEST. BY THE WAY I THINK I HEARD THAT BEFORE.... MMMMMMMM..... LOL

" TOOK THEM OFF AND TRIMMED THEM "

I HAD ENOUGH WITH MY MINI LOCKS SO I TOOK THEM OFF AND I ALSO TRIMMED MY  ENDINGS  BECAUSE THEY WERE QUITE DAMAGED. I DON' T THINK THAT I WILL DO IT AGAIN.

 THE DETANGLING PROCESS WAS SCARY BECAUSE I THINK I LOST TOO MUCH HAIR. THE SHRINKAGE AGAIN IS VERY  OBVIOUS BUT NOW I DON'T CARE ANY MORE.
 I JUST WANTED MY HAIR FREE.

 IT TOOK ME  THE ALL DAY TO TAKE THEM OFF AND MY ARMS  WERE PAINFUL AT THE END.
THEN I HAD TO  SATURATE MY HAIR WITH SOME COCONUT OIL PLUS A CONDITIONER  SO I COULD  BRUSH AND COMB MY HAIR BEFORE WASHING IT.

WHEN I RINSED,  IT  WAS MORE EASIER FOR ME TO MANAGE BUT I HAD SO MUCH SPLIT ENDS THAT  I DID 4 BRAIDS AND CUT MY HAIR.
 I THINK SERIOUSLY TO GO TO A PROFESSIONAL HAIRSTYLIST FOR  IT.

 NEAR MY HOUSE THERE ONE SO I NEED TO CHECK BUT I AM NOT TRUSTING ANYBODY  WITH MY HAIR EXCEPT MY MUM OR MY SISTER ,
 THE LAST TIME I WENT TO A SALON IT WAS 20 YEARS AGO.!!!! YES IT HAS BEEN A LONG TIME. LOL

I ALSO INTEND TO MAKE A PROFESSIONAL  BLOW DRY AND FLAT IRON ON MY HAIR   IN ORDER TO HAVE A REAL IDEA OF MY LENGTH. THE SHRINKAGE CAN BE DEPRESSING SOMETIMES.

 I HAVE ONE WEEK OFF SO MY HAIR WILL REST AND I WILL LET MY SISTER MAKE NEW BRAIDS BUT THIS TIME A LITTLE BIT THICKER.
AUTUMN IS THERE SO IT IS PROTECTIVE STYLES FOR A GOOD GOOD TIME. LOL

" ALMA " AND THE " SWING OF CHANGE "

 IT 'S BEEN TWO WEEKS NOW THAT I AM BACK TO WORK AND I AM QUITE HAPPY THAT IT WASN'T THAT HARD FOR ME AFTER 5 MORE WEEKS OF REST.

THE KIDS WERE FANTASTIC AND SO HAPPY TO SEE ME  BACK.
IT WAS SO STRANGE FOR ME ESPECIALLY THAT I AM VERY STRICT WITH THEM.
BUT  IT IS NICE TO FEEL MISSED. LOL.

Sorry for my sister she is always on my background. LOL

THE NEW STUDENTS I WORK  WITH ARE QUITE SEVERE BUT I THINK THAT THEY WILL FIND THEM ANOTHER  SPECIAL SCHOOL MORE ADAPTED TO THEIR NEEDS. THAT'S  SAD BECAUSE THEY ARE VERY NICE TO ME.

WHICH BRING ME TO AN ENGLISH  LESSON THAT I HAD ON MONDAY ABOUT THE GOTHIC GENRE. SO THE TEACHER JUST MADE US WATCH THIS ANIMATED MOVIE TITLED " ALMA "  AND I JUST FOUND  IT BRILLIANT.
BECAUSE IT IS VERY SHORT ( 5 MIN ) I WILL NOT MAKE A SUMMERY. JUST WATCH!

BUT I COULD EASILY  FIND MYSELF IN THAT KIND OF SITUATION WHEN YOU ARE JUST AMAZED / FASCINATED BY YOUR OWN REFLECTION,  THROUGH A PICTURE ESPECIALLY WHEN I HAD TO CHOOSE ONE FOR ILLUSTRATING A POST.

IT IS SOMETIMES DIFFICULT BECAUSE I AM LIKE..... WHICH ONE IS THE BEST ? OR THIS ONE IS JUST  PERFECT ?  IS IT REALLY ME ? LOL  ( YES I HAVE A HIGH OPINION OF MYSELF... LOL).
THANKFULLY  FOR ME WHEN I CHOOSE  A  PICTURE NOTHING STRANGE HAPPENS LIKE BEING ABSORBED AND TRAPPED   BY THE COMPUTER. ( SORRY FOR THE SPOILED ALERT! ).

MY SECOND CHOICE IS NAMED " SWING OF  CHANGE "  (6 MIN)  AND I  DEDICATE  IT  ESPECIALLY  TO JAZZ WIFE  FROM  SLIMWAVY 'S BLOG. I HOPE SHE WILL APPRECIATE IT.

I CHOOSE ALSO THIS ONE BECAUSE HERE IN THE UK THIS IS BLACK HISTORY MONTH  AND  ALL THE LESSONS  DURING  OCTOBER WILL BE  FOCUS AND ADAPTED  ON IT.

THIS ANIMATED MOVIE  IS SO AWESOME AND SO DEEP  FOR ME  BECAUSE IT  ILLUSTRATES  HOW THE SEGREGATION WAS IN AMERICA AND HOW SOMETIMES ART ESPECIALLY MUSIC CAN CHANGE PEOPLE MINDS AND PERCEPTIONS.

MUSIC HAS  SUCH AN IMPACT ON PEOPLE THAT IT CAN INFLUENCE BAD OR GOOD ( IN THIS CASE ) ANYONE OR ANY SITUATION.

I CAN SPEAK FOR  MYSELF. WHEN I AM  SAD I JUST PUT  SOME MUSIC AND I FEEL BETTER. SOME SONGS MADE ME THINK AND RECONSIDER  MY WAY OF SEEING THINGS.

YES ! MUSIC IS POWERFUL NEVER UNDERESTIMATE ITS INFLUENCE.
THE SWING OF CHANGE IS REAL FOLKS  AND IT CAN TOUCH ANYBODY.