PREPARING AND WAITING FOR MY CAR.....

YESTERDAY WAS THE LAST MEAL THAT I SHARE WITH MY WONDERFUL COLLEAGUES.
NOW IT IS TIME TO REST BUT MOSTLY TO PREPARE MY DRIVING TEST. I AM ALSO READY TO BUY A NEW CAR SO IT WILL FORCE ME TO HAVE THAT DAM TEST.LOL

BEFORE I REALLY NEVER WANTED A CAR BECAUSE I HAD A ROAD ACCIDENT WHEN I WAS FIVE YEARS OLD.
 I WAS HIT BY A MOTORCYCLE WHEN CROSSING THE ROAD BUT TO BE HONEST IT WAS MY FAULT THE LIGHT WAS RED BUT I STILL DECIDED TO CROSS ???? .

 
IT LEFT ME VERY SCARED OF THE ROAD. IT TOOK ME LIKE 20 YEARS TO CROSSED A ROAD WITHOUT WAITING TO SEE SOMEONE DOING IT THE SAME TIME.
IT WAS THAT BAD. PLUS BECAUSE OF THE ACCIDENT, MY LEFT HIP HAD TO BE OPERATED SO I COULD WALKED PROPERLY.

I SPEND 1 MONTH IN A HOSPITAL WITH OTHERS CHILDREN WITH ALL KINDS  OF PHYSICAL DISABILITIES. I DID NOT LIKE THE PLACE BECAUSE THE NURSES WERE AWFUL AND RACISTS BUT IT HELPS ME TO HEAL QUICKLY BY DOING ALL THE EXERCISES SO I COULD WALK AGAIN.
THE DOCTORS WERE IMPRESSED BY ME BECAUSE EVERYBODY THOUGH THAT I WILL END UP WITH A CANE ALL MY LIFE BUT NOT ME.

WHILE I AM WAITING FOR MY MY FUTURE CAR I AM STILL WALKING IN THE PARK SO I DECIDED  ONE DAY TO DO MY HENNA TREATMENT AND NOT SLEEP OVER NIGHT WITH IT BUT JUST LET IT DRY OUTSIDE THE ALL DAY.

 PLUS NOBODY REALLY PAY ATTENTION TO YOU OR YOUR HAIR IN LONDON. YOU ARE FREE TO DRESS AND STYLE AS YOU LIKE.LOL
I LOVE THIS METHOD AND IN FACT IT MORE EFFICIENT THAN SLEEPING OVER IT. AND SURPRISINGLY IT DID COVER MY FEW BUT MORE APPEARING GREY HAIR.

I AM PREPARING AND WAITING FOR MY CAR, THAT'S MY NEW OBSESSION NOW.LOL

THE END OF A PROFESSIONAL CHAPTER.

LAST WEEK I FINISHED MY LAST DAYS AT SCHOOL. YES ! I AM NOT WORKING THERE ANYMORE. 

SINCE MY FATHER DEATH I WAS NOT MYSELF ANYMORE. 

IN MY HEAD I WAS COMPLETELY OFF.

 I WANTED TO BREATH, TO CHANGE MY WORK ENVIRONMENT BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE TRAPPED  AND KIND DEPRESSED SINCE I CAME BACK FROM HOLIDAY LAST YEAR.

 IF YOU REMEMBER MY DAD DIED 4 DAYS AFTER I ARRIVED IN CAMEROON. SO ALL MY HOLIDAYS WAS SPENDING TO ORGANIZE THE FUNERAL. AND IN AFRICA / CAMEROON IT IS VERY SPECIAL, 

YOU HAVE ALL SORT OF CEREMONIES TO ATTEND. THE FUNERAL ITSELF TAKE PLACE DURING 2 DAYS. SO IT WAS QUITE EXHAUSTING. I NEVER REALLY HAVE THE TIME TO MOURN PROPERLY. 

SO WHEN I CAME BACK TO WORK, IN ONLY TWO DAYS I FELT SICK SO I HAD TO BE PUT ON SICKNESS ABSENCE DURING 5 WEEKS BY MY DOCTORS.

 THE PAIN WAS TOO MUCH ON MY BELLY MAYBE ALL THIS WAS PSYCHOLOGICAL AND MY FIBROIDS THAT WERE VERY QUITE FOR 5 YEARS STARTED TO  BOTHERING ME VERY HARDLY. 

ANYWAY IT IS A NEW CHAPTER IN MY PROFESSIONAL LIFE AND TO BE HONEST I AM HAPPY TO LEAVE. EVEN IF I HAD THE BEST COLLEAGUES IN THE WORLD. 

NOW I AM USING MY FREE PAYING TIME TO DO MY DRIVING TEST AND APPLY FOR  UK VISA  FOR MY MUM  BECAUSE I WANT HER TO COME AND SPEND SOME TIME WITH ME. 

MY BACK  HAS STARTED TO BEHAVE NORMALLY MEANING NO  SENSIBLE PAIN ANYMORE BUT I HAD TO BE VERY CAREFUL TO NOT SIT AND SLEEP  UNCOMFORTABLY. 

THIS ONE I REALLY TAKE A LOT OF PRECAUTIONS BECAUSE I REALLY DON'T WANT TO FEEL  AGAIN  THE ATROCIOUS  PAIN LIKE I DID FOR ALMOST 4 WEEKS. 

I HOPE THAT WILL HAVE THE POSSIBILITY TO TAKE SOME HOLIDAYS I JUST WANT TO SEE THE SEA  ANYWHERE,  ANYWHERE ...... BUT CLOSE TO ME OF COURSE I AM NOT INTO A  FAR AWAY JOURNEY.....LOL

 

THIS DEFINITIVELY  THE END OF A PROFESSIONAL CHAPTER .

SORRY, IT WAS BECAUSE OF MY BACK..... BUT I AM SLOWLY BACK !

IT IS ALMOST LIKE ONE MONTH AND HALF THAT I DID NOT POST ANYTHING.
THERE ARE MULTIPLE REASONS  FOR  THAT. 

 BUT THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE IS THAT I WAS ON MY BED FOR  4 WEEKS UNABLE TO MOVE OR WALK PROPERLY DUE TO A SEVERE  PAIN IN MY LOWER BACK.
 THE PAIN WAS SO RIDICULOUSLY HIGH THAT MY DOCTOR REQUEST A TOTAL REST AND PARTIAL IMMOBILIZATION TO BE SURE THAT I WILL RECOVER.

IT HAPPENED DURING AN EXERCISE SESSION APPARENTLY I OVER  DONE IT OR THEY DON'T KNOW.
THE GOOD NEWS IS THAT ANY DISC HAVE BEEN AFFECTED ONLY THE MUSCLES.
 I AM  OFF FROM WORK FOR   3 WEEKS NOW.

APPARENTLY I MADE A MISTAKE TO GO BACK TO  WORK AS USUAL  WHEN I FELT THE PAIN.
 SO IT DID INCREASE THE PAIN EVEN WHEN I WAS JUST WALKING. SO MY DOCTOR FORBID ME TO WALK AND  ORDER ME TO STAY AT HOME.
 I WILL SOON BEGINNING TO  HAVE SOME PHYSIOTHERAPY SESSIONS.

SO I WAS LYING ON MY BED MOST OF THE TIME. UNABLE TO DO ANY THING. MY SISTER HAD TO DO EVERYTHING IT WAS THAT BAD.
I COULDN'T EVEN TAKE CARE OF MY HAIR BECAUSE WHEN I WAS TRYING  TO RAISE MY HANDS THE PAIN WAS ALSO VERY HIGH SO MY SISTER HAD TO DO IT FOR ME.

BUT I TOOK THE DECISION TO GO TO THE STYLIST NEXT MONTH. I FOUND ONE NEXT TO MY HOME ( LUCKY ME! ) WHO CAN ALSO TAKE CARE OF NATURAL HAIR.
I WILL COME TO THAT LATER.

NOW I FEEL A LITTLE BETTER ( EVEN THE SITTING POSITION WAS PAINFUL! )  AND I AM SUPPOSED TO GO BACK TO WORK NEXT WEEK. EVEN IF I FEEL  SOME PAIN I JUST HOPE THAT I WILL BE ABLE TO MANAGE MY WORK.

I NEED URGENTLY NOW TO PASS MY DRIVING TEST BECAUSE I WILL PROBABLY NOT BE DOING THE SAME NON SENSE THAT I USED TO DO PLUS MY MUM  HAS TO COME TO LIVE WITH ME AND SHE IS USING A WHEELCHAIR SO MY ENTIRE SUMMER HOLIDAYS  WILL BE DEDICATED TO PASS THAT DAM DRIVING TEST .LOL

A LOT OF THINGS WILL CHANGE FOR ME IN SEPTEMBER BECAUSE I MADE A LOT OF DECISIONS   LATELY  BUT I WILL MENTION THEM LATER.
I DON'T KNOW IF THE PAIN IS THERE TO STAY BUT THE DOCTOR TOLD ME  IT  WILL TAKES MONTHS TO DISAPPEAR COMPLETELY.

SO AGAIN SORRY BUT IT WAS BECAUSE OF MY BACK !

MY COMPUTER IS ALIVE AGAIN.... LOL

AT LEAST MY COMPUTER IS ALIVE AGAIN.
THANKS TO THE IT MANAGER OF MY SCHOOL IS SO GOOD  BUT I HAVE LOST EVERYTHING IN IT TO BE ABLE TO USE IT AGAIN. HE ALSO ADD  THE NEW WINDOWS
SO I AM QUITE HAPPY. BUT I AM ON HOLIDAY AND I HAVE A LOT OF THINGS TO DO. MY SISTER IS BACK IN FRANCE FOR FEW WEEKS SO I AM KILLING MY TIME TO ARRANGE MY FLAT. LOL

I AM ALSO APPLYING  FOR  SOME  NEW JOBS I WANT TO  CHANGE MY PROFESSIONAL ENVIRONMENT. I LOVE MY JOB BUT I JUST WANT TO DO SOMETHING ELSE MAYBE, I DON'T KNOW. SO I AM LOOKING AROUND.

 I ALSO WANT TO START MY OWN BUSINESS BUT HERE IN ENGLAND SO I WILL LINK IT WITH THE FAMILY ONE IN CAMEROON.
WELL ! SO MUCH THINGS TO CONSIDER BUT WITH GOD'S HELP EVERYTHING WILL COME ON TIME AND IN PLACE.

BUT  MY COMPUTER IS ALIVE AGAIN AND THAT'S A GOOD THINK TO START WITH .LOL

" GOLLIBE, GOLLIBE " ! ..... REJOICE, REJOICE !

THIS WILL BE MORE AND MORE DIFFICULT TO MAKE A POST. MY COMPUTER IS OUT OF CONTROL SO I CAN 'T DO A LOT OF THINGS NOW.
PLUS I CAN'T  EVEN UPLOAD MY PICTURES WITH MY SAMSUNG CAMERA,

I AM REALLY FED UP. I WAS SUPPOSE TO GIVE IT TO THE SCHOOL IT ENGINEER BUT HE HAS SO MUCH WORK TO DO BUT THIS WEEK I REALLY NEED TO DO SOMETHING.
NOW  IT'S TIME FOR THE GOOD NEWS!

ONE OF MY CHURCH MEMBER JUST DELIVERED A BABY GIRL TODAY.
 I AM SO HAPPY FOR THIS  YOUNG COUPLE SO I DEDICATE THIS SONG TO THEM.
THEY ARE FROM NIGERIA AND I REALLY LOVE THIS SONG AND THE VIDEO.

 IT IS JUST MY WAY TO CELEBRATE THIS BIG NEWS. I WENT TO THEIR WEDDING LAST YEAR AND IT WAS NOT FAR FROM WHAT YOU CAN SEE IN THIS VIDEO.LOL

"TO MO AND SHAUN AND THEIR LOVELY BABY GIRL"

BASICALLY HE IS SAYING THAT HE WAS SEARCHING FOR A GOOD WIFE FROM SOME  TIMES. THEN HE FOUND  HER  "GOLLIBE" WHICH IS THE NAME OF THE GIRL, ALSO MEANS "REJOICE" IN IGBO ( ONE OF NIGERIA MULTIPLE  LANGUAGES).

THE GIRL IS SO STRONG AND BEAUTIFUL LIKE A PRECIOUS STONE.  IF YOU GO TO YOUTUBE  YOU WILL HAVE THE TRANSLATION  IN THE COMMENTS SECTION. BECAUSE IGBO IS NOT MY NATIVE LANGUAGE. SO DON'T WORRY JUST ENJOY. THE VIDEO EXPLAIN THE SONG PERFECTLY.

HAPPY MOTHER DAY !...... EVEN FOR ME

IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I DID A POST BUT MY COMPUTER IS RUNNING SO SLOW THAT I NEED TO  CLEAN IT SO I HAD TO GIVE IT TO THE IT MANAGER OF THE SCHOOL WHO WILL DO IT FOR FREE.

THIS IS  ONE OF A GOOD THINGS THAT I LIKED WHEN I  AM WORKING IN A SCHOOL... FREE STUFF AND SERVICES WHEN I CAN.LOL

TODAY IS MOTHER DAY IN THE UK SO AT CHURCH THEY GAVE 2 ROSES TO EACH MUM AND EVEN FOR ME WHEN I DID NOT HAVE KIDS. I ASKED THEM WHY THEY SAID THAT YOU ARE A MUM WHEN YOU RAISED A CHILD.

SO IT IS TRUE THAT I HELPED RAISE MY NIECE ( SHE WILL BE 18 NEXT MONTH ) AND SHE DID REMIND ME ALL THE TIME THAT SHE CONSIDERS ME AS A SECOND MUM.

WHEN I WAS WORKING AT DISNEYLAND PARIS THERE WAS ALWAYS THAT CONFUSION OR ASSUMPTION THAT I HAD 1 OR 2 KIDS DESPITE THE FACT WHEN I FILED MY APPLICATION FORM I TOLD THEM THAT I WAS CHILD FREE.

 THE ONLY REASON WAS BECAUSE A LOT OF MY FELLOW AFRICAN FEMALES EMPLOYEES WERE ALREADY MUMMY  OR  MARRIED  AT 24.
SO BECAUSE OF A LAZY BRAINS I RECEIVED A LOT OF GIFT FOR MY " KIDS".

IN THE BEGINNING I WAS ALWAYS RETURNED THEM BUT I STOPPED REPEATING MYSELF, IT STARTED TO BECOMING IRRITATING. I JUST IGNORED THEM AND NEVER WENT TO COLLECTED MY "KIDS PRESENTS". LOL

WHEN PEOPLE WANTS TO PUT YOU IN A BOX BECAUSE OF THE WAY YOU LOOK OR COMING FROM  THERE IS  PRETTY MUCH NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO CHANGE THEIRS MINDS . 

ANYWAY HAPPY MOTHER DAY ! TO ALL THE SWEET MUMS ( MA MAMAN BIEN SUR !)  IN THE WORLD, THE BIOLOGICAL ONES, THE SPIRITUALS ONES AND THE COMPLEMENTED ONES JUST LIKE ME. LOL

MY DAD' S WILL AND MY WILL ....

THIS WEEK I AM ON HOLIDAY IT IS HALF TERM. I REALLY NEED TO HAVE THIS BREAK. I WAS EVEN STARTING  TO FEEL SLEEPING DURING LESSONS. LOL

FINALLY MY MUM WILL NOT COME TO LONDON BECAUSE SHE WANTS TO GO BACK QUICKLY TO CAMEROON TO SUPERVISE HER BUSINESS. WE ARE INTO FARMING.

 IN FACT SHE NEEDS ALSO TO GET AN OPERATION ON ONE OF HER KNEE IN PARIS THEN SHE WILL BE BACK TO CAMEROON WITH MY LITTLE SISTER. I THINK THAT SHE PREFER TO STAY THERE BECAUSE OF MY DAD AND SHE IS VERY BUSY SO SHE DOES NOT HAVE TO THINK ABOUT THE PAST.

WHEN ONE OF YOUR PARENT DIED YOU NEVER THINK ABOUT SOME ISSUES THAT YOU WILL FACE LIKE THE EXECUTION OF THE WILL ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU ARE A WOMAN AND DOESN'T HAVE CHILDREN.

SUDDENLY YOU HAVE TO ASSURE THE MEN ( I HAVE 7 BROTHERS )  THAT IF YOU DIE ( YES NOW I NEED TO THINK ABOUT MY OWN DEATH !!!!) WHO IS GOING TO END UP WITH  YOUR  OWN  LAND.

MY BROTHERS WANTED ME TO ASSURE THEM THAT MY PART WILL STAY IN THE FAMILY. I WAS QUITE SHOCKED BECAUSE  THIS KIND OF THINGS NEVER REALLY CROSSED MY MIND.

ANYWAY I STAYED VERY CALM AND TOLD THEM THAT WHAT I AM DOING WITH MY OWN LAND IT IS NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS ALIVE OR DEAD.

I USED TO SEE   FAMILIES FIGHTING OVER THE WILL  IN MOVIES AND REAL LIFE BUT IT NEVER OCCURS TO ME THAT I WILL ONE DAY BE ON THIS SITUATION ESPECIALLY BECAUSE MY SIBLINGS AND I WE ARE VERY CLOSED.

 FOR THE MOMENT THEY SEEMED TO GOT THE MESSAGE SO WE WILL SEE  ........

I DO NOT MANIPULATE MY HAIR  NOW BECAUSE I KEEP MY BRAIDS 4 WEEKS THEN I TOOK THEM OFF AND LET IT REST 2 WEEKS, THEN I AM ON MY BRAIDS FOR ANOTHER  4 WEEKS.

IT IS DURING  THIS BREAK THAT I TRIED SOME HAIRSTYLES BUT TO BE HONEST THE RESULTS ARE NOT CLOSE TO WHAT I WANT TO ACHIEVE.
IN THIS CASE  BUT IT'S  FUN ESPECIALLY WHEN I TRIED MY PURPLE MAKE UP.

 I AM ADDICTED TO MAKE UP TUTORIALS ON YOUTUBE. THE FUNNY THING IS WHEN I WAS VERY MUCH YOUNGER,  I WAS ANTI MAKE UP. I   SAID TO MYSELF THAT IT IS ONLY AT  40 THAT WE MUST  START TO PUT MAKE UP.

SO NOW IT IS THE TIME FOR ME. LOL  ( I KNOW I WAS STRANGE BUT I KEPT THIS  RESOLUTION, THE ONLY ONE THAT I ACTUALLY APPLIED)

IT IS LIKE MY DAD, I MADE  A WILL   WHEN I WAS IN MY TWENTIES BECAUSE I KNEW THEY  WILL BE GONE.