HIDING LOCKS AND HIDING MYSELF

HIDING IS WHAT I AM DOING RIGHT NOW.

IT'S BEEN ALMOST 3 WEEKS NOW THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN TO WORK.
 I ONLY WORKED LIKE 2 DAY SINCE THE BEGINNING OF THE SCHOOL.

I SUDDENLY DID NOT FELT WELL IN MY HEAD. I COULDN'T SLEEP. IT WAS SO BAD THAT I HAVE TO CALL THEM AND TOLD THEM I WAS IN A VERY BAD MOOD SINCE MY DAD DIED.

I WENT TO MY GP AND HE GAVE ME FIRST 2 WEEKS BUT BEFORE THE END  I STARTED TO FEEL MORE PAIN IN MY TUMMY SO I WENT BACK AND MY GP GAVE ME 3 MORE WEEKS.   MY FIBROIDS PAINS STARTED AGAIN JUST WHEN I CAME BACK.
SO BASICALLY I HAD 5 WEEKS FOR SICKNESS.

MY HOLIDAY WERE FOR 5 WEEKS.AND I SPEND 4 WEEKS IN CAMEROON. SO I AM HAPPY BECAUSE I HAD THEM BACK .....  THANK YOU GOD.

I NEED TO STAY AT HOME AND JUST RELAX.
 I THINK THE DEATH OF MY DAD DID AFFECT ME MORE THAN I THOUGH.
 PLUS IT WASN'T REALLY HOLIDAY FOR ME BECAUSE I SPENT ALL THE  TIME TO ORGANISE THE FUNERAL. PLUS WITH ALL THE DRAMA SURROUNDINGS THE ORGANISATION   (YOU NEED TO THINK ABOUT THE TRADITIONAL  ASPECT OF THE EVENT).

I DON'T FEEL THE NEED TO DO ANYTHING. EVEN  WITH  MY HAIR IT IS EASY BECAUSE I HAVE LOCKS BUT TO BE HONEST YOU CAN'T SEE THEM .LOL

SERIOUSLY IT'S LIKE THEY HIDING. I HOPE I WILL BE ABLE TO KEEP THEM  UNTIL DECEMBER ..... BUT WITH MY HAIR I DON'T KNOW.
 AND I HAVE ANOTHER PROBLEM HOW I WILL BE ABLE TO " UN-LOCK THEM" I NEED NOW TO LOOK AT SOME TUTORIALS BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO BREAK MY HAIR WHEN THAT TIME WILL HAPPEN.

SO ME AND MY LOCKS ARE HIDING FROM PEOPLE AND I THINK THAT'S COOL BECAUSE WE REALLY NEED TO REST.LOL

MY HAIR FOR THE FUNERAL

 BECAUSE MY DAD DIED 4 DAYS AFTER MY ARRIVAL I  HAD TO CHANGE MY PLAN FOR  THE WHOLE HOLIDAY.

 FOR ME IT WAS JUST THAT I HAD TO BURY HIM LIKE QUICKLY ( 2 WEEKS MAYBE?????/)  DON'T LAUGH I WANTED JUST TO AVOID THINKING ABOUT IT TOO MUCH.

PLUS MOST OF THE TIME WHEN I AM GOING TO SHOPPING I KNOW WHAT I WANT TO SPEND AND BUY. BUT FOR FUNERAL ................
IT IS NOT THE SAME THING ESPECIALLY WHEN MY DAD HAD MADE SOME SUGGESTIONS THAT WE MUST  FOLLOW WITHOUT DISCUSSION..

MY LITTLE NIECE MADE THEM IN ONE HOUR.

IN CAMEROON FUNERAL INVOLVE THE WHOLE FAMILY AND BELIEVE ME IT IS HUGE.
AS WOMEN WE HAVE TO FOLLOW SOME RESTRICTION ESPECIALLY THE HAIR. TECHNICALLY I MUST HAVE CUT OR SHAVE MY HEAD ( ONLY THE WIDOW AND THE DAUGHTERS ).

I HOPE SOMEBODY WILL BE ABLE TO TELL ME  MY REAL TEXTURE.

I DIDN'T WANT TO BUT THEY TOLD ME THAT I CAN WEAR A HAIRSTYLE WHICH WILL NOT REQUIRE A FASHION STYLE.
SO MUST OF THE WOMEN WHEN THEY DON'T WANT TO CUT THEIR HAIR, THEY JUST BRAID IT AND COVER  WITH A TRADITIONAL SCARF,

YOU HAVE TO DO IT AT LEAST 6 MONTHS. I OPTED FOR LOCKS. BECAUSE I KNOW THAT IT WILL BE EASY TO KEEP THEM 6 MONTHS.

THE PROBLEM IT'S THAT I JUST REALISED  THAT MY HAIR ARE NOT 4C SO TO OBTAIN GOOD LOCKS WILL BE DIFFICULT.

 IN THE BEGINNING,  IT WAS OK BUT THE MORE I WASH  MY HAIR  , THE MORE I REALISE THAT I CAN'T NOT LOCK IT PROPERLY.
NEVER MIND I WILL MANAGE TO KEEP IT THAT WAY THE BEST I CAN.

 AT THE END IT IS ABOUT HONOURING MY DAD.

I PLAN TO USE CASTOR OIL,  LEAVE IN CONDITIONER  AND SHEA BUTTER. I ALSO WILL ESSENTIALLY CO WASH IT.
 OF COURSE I CAN GO TO YOUTUBE TO LEARN HOW TO MAINTAIN MY  FRAGILE LOCKS.

BUT I REALLY NEED TO KNOW MY REAL TEXTURE. AGAIN I AM A LITTLE BIT LOST.

AFTER THE FIRST CO WASH MY SHRINKAGE AT ITS  BEST.LOL

AUREVOIR ET MERCI PAPA

I WAS 12 AND IT WAS MY FIRST COMMUNION.

MAYBE THE MOST DIFFICULT POST I EVER HAVE TO  WRITE BUT I THINK I NEED TO . 

YES I AM BACK FROM HOLIDAY .........WELL HELL-LIDAY BECAUSE AS SOON I ARRIVED IN YAOUNDE THE 21 ST AUGUST MY DAD DIED THE 25 TH AT HOME IN MY ARMS. 

I WAS PLANNING PROPER VACATION/EXCURSION  AND EVERYTHING BUT I HAD TO STOP AND ONLY CONCENTRATE ON THE PREPARATIONS OF HIS FUNERAL.
IT WASN'T EASY BECAUSE I WANTED TO DO THINGS SIMPLY BUT IN AFRICA YOU HAVE TO FOLLOW SOME TRADITIONS AND DARE TO AVOID THEM YOU WILL BE IN A VERY BIG TROUBLE.

BEFORE DYING I HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO TALK AND EAT WITH MY DAD. YES WE SHARE WITH MY SISTER HIS LAST MEAL THAT I COOKED. A LOT OF PEOPLE TOLD ME THAT THAT IT WAS A BENEDICTION. I DON'T KNOW BUT TO BE HONEST I JUST DON'T CARE. IT WASN'T SUPPOSE TO BE THAT WAY.

MY FATHER WOKE ME UP IN THE MORNING AND ASKED ME TO LET HIM SEAT ON A CHAIR DESPITE THE FACT THAT HE WAS SO WEAK, I JUST DID AND HE STARTED TO SNORE VERY LOUDLY DURING THAT TIME I WAS PRAYING AND SINGING. I WAS HOLDING HIM IN MY ARMS SO HE COULDN'T FALL OVER.

PAPA ET MAMAN  WITH  MY UNCLE AND AUNTIE.

MY MUM  KEPT SAYING TO ME  ; "LOOK AT HIM HE IS LEAVING US, CAN'T YOU SEE?"..... NO I COULDN'T SEE BECAUSE I DID NOT WANT TO SEE.... SIMPLE.
AFTER ONE HOUR AND HALF THE SNORING BECAME LESS AND LESS LOUDER SO I DECIDED TO MOVE HIM NEXT TO THE WINDOW SO WE CAN AT LEAST SHAVE HIM, A REQUEST FROM MY MUM.

 I HOLD HIS HEAD  WHILE ONE OF MY MALE  COUSIN SHAVED HIM. WHEN HE FINISHED I REALISED THAT MY DAD WASN'T MAKING ANY NOISE WITH HIS MOUTH AND SEEMED TO BE JUST SLEEPY. THEN I KNOW THAT HE WAS DEFINITIVELY DEAD. HE DIED IN HIS SLEEP VERY PEACEFULLY.

I COULD HAVE WROTE ABOUT HIM A LONG TIME AGO ( I THINK I DID ) BUT TO BE HONEST WHY?  PLUS MY DAD STIPULATED THAT WHEN HE DIED HE  DIDN'T WANT ANY TESTIMONY ABOUT HIM.

HIS PHILOSOPHY WAS THAT HE YOU WANT TO SAY SOMETHING BAD OR GOOD SAY IT WHEN THE PERSON IS ALIVE. THAT'S WHY HIS FUNERAL WAS A HUGE PARTY WHEN I  WILL RECEIVE THE VIDEO I WILL TRY TO POST THEM.

THE DAY BEFORE HE DIED WE WERE 4 PEOPLE IN MY PARENTS BEDROOM, MY DAD,  MY MUM, MY SISTER AND ME. I TOLD THEM HOW IT WAS STRANGE THAT WE WERE THE FOURTH OF THE FAMILY TO CAME IN FRANCE AND BORN IN CAMEROON.
YES, IN FACT MY DAD CAME FIRST IN FEBRUARY 1971 AND WE FOLLOWED MY SISTER AND ME (  WE WERE 2 AND 1 YEARS OLD ) WITH MUMMY A YEAR LATER. SO OUR FAMILY STARTED WE US IN FRANCE. AND THE LAST NIGHT DADDY WAS AGAIN WITH US.
  IT 'S LIKE CLOSING ONE  CIRCLE OF  OUR  FAMILY LIFE I THINK.

MY PARENTS AND THEIR 3 DAUGHTERS AND 7 SONS WE WERE ALL AT HIS FUNERAL IN CAMEROON. THEY HAD TO COME URGENTLY. I THINK HE WAS HAPPY BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT HE ASKED IN HIS WILL THAT WE MUST ALL BE THERE.

HE WAS 70 YEARS OLD AND DIABETIC FOR 45 YEARS , THE LAST 7 YEARS WERE VERY PAINFUL FOR HIM. HE ALWAYS TOLD US THAT HE WANTED TO GO, SO IT'S  QUITE UNDERSTANDABLE BUT IT HURTS SO BAD, SO SO BAD.

AUREVOIR ET MERCI PAPA.

JET OFF TOMORROW AND BACK ON SEPTEMBER

THIS IS A  VERY QUICK POST BEFORE LANDING TOMORROW FROM  HEATHROW AIRPORT ...... DESTINATION  MY DEAR COUNTRY CAMEROON.

YEAH ! IT' S BEEN  7 YEARS  OF ABSENCE FROM MY HOME / BIRTH  COUNTRY. I AM LEAVING TOMORROW AT 5 AM SO IT IS QUITE EARLY BUT THE AIRPORT IS FAAAAR AWAY FROM LONDON AND APPARENTLY THE TRAFFIC IS BAD SOOO.

MY FINANCES ARE VERY TIGHT BECAUSE OF COURSE I HAD VERY BAD SURPRISES 2 WEEKS AGO BUT I DON'T WANT TO RUIN MY HOLIDAYS FOR THAT.

 UNTIL THE LAST MINUTE I HAD TO  WAIT FOR MY VISA BECAUSE THEY WERE ASKING TOO MUCH THINGS KNOWING THAT I AM BORN THERE AND MY  PARENTS LIVE THERE. BUT IT IS DIFFICULT FOR EVERYBODY  SINCE  WHAT HAPPEN IN NIGERIA WITH BOKO HARAM. THEY ARE VERIFYING INTENSIVELY EVERYBODY.

BUT THE GOOD THING IS  THAT MY LAST WEEK AT WORK WAS FANTASTIC. IN FACT I DID NOT SPEND IT AT WORK BUT IN A FRIARY AMONG  FRANCISCAN BROTHERS.
 I WAS THERE BECAUSE I NEED TO BE WITH  A STUDENT DURING HIS WORK EXPERIENCE.

HERE IN THE UK,  STUDENTS  AT 15 MUST COMPLETED  A WORK EXPERIENCE SORT LIKE A ONE OR TWO WEEKS JOB JUST FOR THE STUDENT TO HAVE AN IDEA OF  HOW THE EMPLOYMENT ENVIRONMENT IS.
SO THE STUDENT WAS PLACED IN THIS FRIARY BECAUSE HE HAS LEARNING DIFFICULTIES AND THE TASK THAT HE WOULD HAVE GIVEN WERE VERY SIMPLE.

IT WAS SUCH A NICE QUIET PLACE. SOME OF THE RESIDENTS ARE HOMELESS FAMILIES (3)  OR JUST SINGLES PEOPLE ( 12).

THEY END UP THERE BECAUSE SOCIAL SERVICES  HAVEN'T ENOUGH PLACES TO ACCOMMODATE THEM. SOME PEOPLE  JUST PASS BY BECAUSE THEY ARE ISOLATED AND WANT TO TALK OR HELP WITH THEIR BENEFIT  APPLICATIONS AND SOME JUST COME FOR FRUITS AND SANDWICHES.

THE FOOD IS SUPPLIED BY NEIGHBOURS SUPERMARKET. IT MADE MOSTLY OF THE LEFTOVER SELLS OF THE DAY.

I HAD THE PRIVILEGE TO INTERACT WITH EVERYBODY AND MORE IMPORTANT TO PRAY WITH THE BROTHERS EVERY 12 PM. THE STUDENTS AND MYSELF  REALLY ENJOYED IT AND I WAS ASK TO VOLUNTEER. SO I WILL DEFINITIVELY PLAN SOMETHING AFTER MY HOLIDAY.

 BUT NOW I AM GOING TO ENJOY AND RELAX WITH MY FAMILY FOR ONE MONTH SO DON'T EXPECT ME TO POST BEFORE SEPTEMBER.

SOOO CIAO, BYE BYE AND AU REVOIR. LOL

MAJOR PAIN, MINOR PAIN BUT THERE WILL BE A GAIN .......

I KNOW I KNOW  IT'S BEEN LIKE A MONTH BUT I HAVE A LOT OF EXCUSES TO NOT POST THAT MUCH. I AM VERY INVOLVE WITH MY CHURCH AND I ALSO NEED TO PREPARE MY HOLIDAYS IN CAMEROON NOW THAT MY PARENTS ARE BACK HOME SAFE AND HEALTHY.

BUT KIND OF SADLY  I RECEIVED A VERY BAD NEWS TWO WEEKS AGO. ONE OF MY NIECE (TA) , SHE IS 32  AND  LOST A 3 WEEKS BABY GIRL.
THE BABY DIED AT HOME IN HER SLEEP. SHE WOKE UP TO CHECK HER THEN REALISE THAT HER NOSE WAS BLEEDING.
SO SHE TOOK HER STRAIGHT TO HOSPITAL. OVER THERE THEY TRIED TO  SAVE HER BUT FAILED. THE DOCTORS TOLD HER  IT  WAS A SUDDEN INFANT DEATH SYNDROME. THERE  WAS  NOTHING THEY COULD HAVE DONE TO SAVE HER.

YOU CAN IMAGINE HOW HER HUSBAND AND HER  ARE  DESTROYED INSIDE. THE WHOLE FAMILY IS AT SHOCK. HER HUSBAND CRIED EVERYDAY AND COULD NOT TALK TO THE PHONE.
 SHE IS ALSO  SHOCKED AND REFUSED TO TALK TO ANYBODY. I DON'T BLAME HER BUT I FEEL THAT IT IS THE WORSE TO STAY ON YOUR OWN.
WE HAD TO SEND MY OTHER NIECE ( SHE IS 17 TO STAY WITH THEM AND HELP TO TAKE CARE OF THEIR TWO SONS ). BUT SHE TOLD US THAT (TA) IS ALREADY ON MEDICATION  (VALIUM) AND WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE  OF THE NIGHT TO LOOK FOR HER LOST DAUGHTER. IT IS SOOO SAD.

WE ARE ALL PRAYING BUT HER PARENTS AND FRIENDS ARE SO WORRIED. TO BURIED YOUR OWN CHILD IT IS THE NIGHTMARE OF EVERY PARENTS.
TO MAKE THINGS MORE DIFFICULT THE WHOLE PREGNANCY WAS SO DIFFICULT. SHE AVOID 3 TIMES A MISCARRIAGE SO WHEN THE BABY CAME HEALTHY SHE  WAS  SOOO OVERJOYED  BUT JUST FOR  3 WEEKS.

I KNOW THAT HER BABY GIRL IS IN HEAVEN WITH GOD SO I AM  AT PEACE THE SADNESS WAS NOT REALLY THERE. I ALWAYS THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT THE CHILD WILL NOT GO THROUGH IN THIS CRAZY WORLD. SOMETIMES YOU ARE MUCH MORE BETTER NEXT TO GOD THAN HERE.
 BUT SURE THE PARENTS DID NOT THINK THAT WAY ESPECIALLY IF THEY ARE NOT DEEPLY CHRISTIANS.
SHE IS ALREADY THINKING AND PLANNING A NEW BABY. WE ALL HOPE SHE WILL GET PREGNANT AGAIN SO MAYBE IT WILL  APPEASE HER.
THAT'S A MAJOR PAIN .......

TALKING ABOUT PAIN, I HAVE HUGE ONE IN MY LEFT ANKLE WHICH PREVENTS ME TO DO MY JOGGING 4 TIMES A WEEK. AND I AM MAD BECAUSE I AM AFRAID TO LOOSE ALL THE BENEFIT THAT I ACQUIRED LIKE TONE MUSCLES AND FEW POUNDS DOWN.
I HAD TO MISS WORK TWO DAYS COULDN'T WALK AT ALL.

MY PERSONAL TRAINER AND THE DOCTOR TOLD ME IT WAS BECAUSE OF THE INTENSIVE JOGGING. AND ALL I NEED WAS SOME SPECIFIC STRETCHING EXERCISES, ICE FOR 10 MIN AND IBUPROFEN GEL..... AND PRAYER BECAUSE I WANT THE PAIN TO STOP  STOP  STOP......
BUT THAT'S A MINOR PAIN .........

WE KNOW THAT WITH PAIN THERE IS ALWAYS A GAIN, YOU JUST NEED TO TRUST GOD AND BE PATIENT. THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON.

I AM NOT A CELEBRITY BUT ...... LOL

I AM NOT A CELEBRITY AND SURELY NOT VERY RICH BUT I KNOW IT WILL CHANGE SOON, VERY SOON ...... AMEN

BUT GUESS WHAT I HAVE A PERSONAL TRAINER.
DO YOU REMEMBER THAT I USED TO FOLLOW WEIGHT WATCHERS PROGRAM BUT I HAD TO QUIT BECAUSE I ONLY LOST LIKE 1 STONE IN  1 YEAR AND HALF.
THEN MY BODY JUST STOPPED THERE AND EVEN SOMETIMES I WAS GAINING 3 POUNDS THERE AND THERE.
I STARTED TO BECOME FED UP LIKE DEPRESSED. BECAUSE DESPITE ALL MY ATTENTION AND MY EFFORTS THERE WERE NO IMPROVEMENTS AT ALL.
 PLUS DO NOT FORGET THE STRESS AND DECEPTION THAT I HAD TO ENDURE EACH WEEKS.SO I DECIDED TO QUIT.

ONE SUNDAY IN MY CHURCH A MEMBER ASKED ME IF I WANTED TO A WALK FROM EAST LONDON TO CENTRAL LONDON FOR A CHARITY WE WERE SUPPORTING I TOLD HER NO BECAUSE I WAS NOT REALLY IN FORM  DESPITE THAT I WALKED LIKE MORE THAN 1 KM BY DAY.
SO SHE PROPOSED TO TRAINED ME FOR THE RACE AFTER ALL SHE IS ALSO A PHYSIOTHERAPIST AND PERSONAL TRAINER.
I TOLD HER THAT I WILL TRAINED NOT FOR THE  RACE ( PREFER TO GIVE MONEY)  BUT TO TRY TO LOSE SOME WEIGHT THEN I EXPLAINED TO HER  MY PROBLEMS WITH  MY WEIGHT LOSS ATTEMPT.

SHE EXPLAINED TO ME DIFFERENCE BETWEEN PHYSICAL EXERCISE ( WALKING)  AND  EXERCISE LIKE FITNESS. SHE ALSO TOLD ME THAT EACH BODY IS VERY DIFFERENT THAT EVEN IF I EAT THE SAME THINGS THAT MY SISTER , SHE CAN LOOSE MORE WEIGHT THAN ME.
SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE WILL DESIGNED A PERSONAL PROGRAM  FOR ME WHICH WILL TARGET MY WHOLE  BODY. SHE ADVISED ME TO NOT  CHECK MY WEIGHT EVERY WEEK BUT ONLY EVERY 6 WEEKS WITH HER AND JUST CONCENTRATE BY DOING THE EXERCISES BECAUSE THE DIFFERENCE ON THE SCALE CAN TAKE A LONG  TIME BEFORE SHOWING UP.
 SHE TOOK MY MEASUREMENTS AND TOLD ME THAT I WILL MOST LIKELY SEE MORE RESULTS THIS WAY.

AND GUESS WHAT SHE WAS RIGHT. I DID GET SLIMMER IN MY TUMMY ( LOST 3  1/2  INCHES, IN THIGHS 1 1/2 INCHES EACH AND 1 INCHES IN MY ARMS)  BUT MY WEIGHT STAYS THE SAME.

NOW I DON'T REALLY CARE AND REALISED THAT I AM JUST ENJOYING DOING THE JOGGING ( I JOGGED 1 HOUR 4 TIMES A WEEK + THE FLOOR EXERCISES ).
 PLUS I DON'T HAVE TO BLAME MYSELF EVERY WEEK  WHEN THINGS DON'T GO  A CERTAIN WAY.
I STILL FOLLOW THE WEIGHT WATCHERS  ROUTINE  BECAUSE A BALANCE DIET IS STILL VERY IMPORTANT BUT I STOPPED BANNING CERTAIN KIND OF FOOD BECAUSE I WAS SO DESPERATE TO SEE A RESULT ON THE SCALE.
EVERY TWO WEEKS I EXERCISED WITH HER. BUT IT IS VERY HARD COMPARE TO  MY DAILY PROGRAM BUT SHE TOLD ME THAT WITH HER  IT WILL BE THAT WAY.
SO THAT'S FINE.
ESPECIALLY WHEN IT WILL COST ME  £ 10 PER SESSION. LOL

THANK YOU JESUS! THANK YOU HEAVENLY GOD , THE MIRACLE WORKERS

 IT'S BEEN A WHOLE MONTH NOW.
 I KNOW BUT I HAVE A VERY SERIOUS EXCUSE.
MY DAD WAS NOT VERY WELL. IN FACT HE WAS IN A COMA,  AT ONE POINT MY BROTHERS AND MY MUM WERE THINKING THAT WE COULD LOST HIM.

BUT YOU KNOW NOT ME. I DID NOT WANT TO DEEP INSIDE ME I WAS LIKE NO NO NOT NOW HE IS TOO YOUNG ( 70 ). EVEN IF HE HAS DIABETIC SINCE LIKE 40 YEARS.
LAST MONDAY I CAME BACK HOME AND MY SISTER TOLD ME THAT MY MUM IS ALMOST SCARED MY DAD WENT TO SLEEP THE NIGHT BEFORE AND STILL DID NOT WAKE UP.  I WAS LIKE " WHAT".

THE DOCTOR JUST GAVE HIM ANOTHER MEDICATION SINCE HE TOOK THEM, HE CHANGED. BECAUSE MY DAD INFORMED MY MUM THAT IF SOMETHING LIKE THIS HAPPENS HE DOES NOT WANT TO GO TO HOSPITAL BUT " GO THERE " IN MY BROTHER HOUSE AROUND HIS CHILDREN.

I TOOK MY PHONE TOLD MY MUM TO PRAY AND THAT HE WILL WAKE UP. SHE WAS ALMOST CRYING " YOU ARE NOT HERE, YOU CAN'T SEE WHAT I SEE THAT'S WHY YOU SAID THAT. I KNOW I HAVE TO PRAY BUT IF IT IS HIS TIME TO GO WE MUST BE READY" AND AGAIN I SAID NO. I TOLD HER TO READ ABOUT LAZARUS AND THE YOUNG GIRL JESUS RESUSCITATED IN THE BIBLE. 

YOU KNOW I WAS A LITTLE SCARED ALSO BUT I HAD TO CHASE ANY DOUBT BECAUSE I REMEMBERED READING IN THE BIBLE THAT IF YOU DOUBT DO NOT EXPECT YOUR PRAYERS TO BE ANSWERED BECAUSE IT IS LIKE BELIEVING THAT GOD CAN NOT DO IT. WHICH IS EQUAL TO NOT BELIEVING IN HIM AT ALL. SO NO WAY I WILL LET THIS EVIL THOUGHT  RUIN MY FAITH,  TOO MUCH WAS AT STAKE.

AND YOU KNOW THAT YOU HAVE FAITH WHEN YOU ARE IN A SITUATION WHEN EVERYTHING LOOK ALREADY DECIDED AND YOU JUST NEED TO SHOW TO GOD THAT ALL THIS TIME IT WAS NOT JUST TALK TALK  BUT REAL FAITH. THAT YOU REALLY PUT EVERYTHING IN HIS HANDS.

AT THE SAME TIME IN MY HEAD, THE STORY OF THIS YOUNG BLACK BOY WHO WAS KIDNAPPED AND STARTED TO SANG HIS FAVOURITE GOSPEL SONG DURING 3 HOURS THEN HIS KIDNAPPER JUST GOT FED UP AND RELEASED HIM.
SUCH A GOOD LESSON OF COURAGE AND FAITH.  AND JESUS SAID WE NEED TO HAVE A MIND LIKE CHILDREN. SO I KNEW  OUR PRAYERS WILL BE ANSWERED.

WE PRAYED ON THE PHONE AT THE SAME TIME, TOLD MY MUM TO LAY HER HANDS ON HIM, I COULD HEARD HIM SNORING STRANGELY AND LOUDLY. BUT I PRAYED AND TOLD MY MUM  "HE WILL WAKE UP AND  DON'T WORRY CALL ME  ". THAT NIGHT I COULD NOT EVEN EAT OR SLEEP. I JUST STAY IN MY BED AND FELL ASLEEP.

THE PHONE RANG IT WAS MY MUM AND SHE TOLD ME MY BROTHER END UP CALLING AN AMBULANCE. I WAS STILL CALM  THEN MY MUM TOLD ME  " DO YOU WANT TO TALK TO YOUR DAD ?  I WAS LIKE WHAT HE DID WAKE UP ? SHE SAID YES AND HE IS WELL.
I TOOK THE PHONE AND JUST HEARD MY FATHER'S VOICE LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED TO HIM. THE DOCTOR DID NOT EVEN THINK THAT HE NEEDED TO GO TO HOSPITAL. THEY JUST TOLD US THAT HE WAS IN A COMA AND WERE SURPRISED TO WOKE HIM UP SO QUICKLY.

I TOLD MY DAD TO NOT JUST PRAY THIS TIME BUT TO GAVE HIS LIFE TO CHRIST TO BE BORN AGAIN BECAUSE EVEN IF YOU THINK YOU WERE A CHRISTIAN BEFORE YOU NEED TO BE BORN AGAIN TO BE SAVED.

 THANK YOU  HEAVENLY FATHER   THANK YOU JESUS THE MIRACLE WORKERS. AMEN

THIS POST WILL BE EASILY UNDERSTOOD BY CHRISTIANS BUT IT IS FOR EVERYBODY.