STYLING MY LOCKS AND FIGHTING MY FEARS.

 THIS IS MY LAST WEEK OF " REST" SO I WANT TO PROFIT A MAXIMUM OF IT.
 I STILL HAVE  MY LOCKS BUT I THINK THAT I WILL TAKE THEM OFF BECAUSE  I AM BORED WITH THE STYLE.

 I THOUGHT THAT I WILL  KEEP THEM UNTIL DECEMBER  BUT I GOT THE IMPRESSION THAT THE DETANGLING PROCESS WILL BE VERY DIFFICULT AND PAINFUL.
I AM AFRAID THAT I WILL CUT OR LOOSE  A LOT OF HAIR.
EVEN IF I DID ENJOY THE  HAIRSTYLE I THINK THAT TO GET BACK  TO WORK I NEED TO HAVE MY HAIR IN  A SCARF OR JUST 2 BRAIDS SO I WILL DO A LOT OF DEEP CONDITIONINGS BEFORE  THE WINTER IS COMING. I WANT TO DO IT EACH WEEK.

I AM NOT TOO  EXCITED TO GO BACK  TO WORK BUT I AM HAPPY TO HAVE  MY HOLIDAY  (5 WEEKS)  BACK BECAUSE ALL MY SUMMER HOLIDAYS (5 WEEKS) WERE SPENT  AT ORGANISING  MY DAD'S FUNERAL AND I  DON'T NEED TO TALK ABOUT  ALL THE FAMILY DRAMA... I WAS LIKE REALLY DRAINED FROM INSIDE.  NOW I START TO FEEL MORE BETTER, THANKS GOD.

WITH THIS HAIR STYLE I TRY TO DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT AND SIMPLE. SO I USED 3 BOBBY PEENS TO TIDE THE BACK OF MY HAIR AND  BRING THE LOCKS AT THE FRONT TO MAKE A BANGLE. AND THAT'S IT. LOL
BECAUSE IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE THAT I HAVE LOCKS IT 'S MORE LIKE  MY HAIR ARE
CURLY.

IN ANOTHER SUBJECT,  I HAVE NEW RESOLUTIONS SINCE MY DAD DIED. THE MAIN ONE IS  TO  TAKE SOME ACTIONS, IN FACT I NEED TO FIGHT SOME OF THE FEARS THAT I HAVE.  AND THERE ARE PLENTY.  I WILL TRY ......
NO I WILL USE THESE ADVICES FROM PASTOR SAM ADEYEMI. I LOVE IS EXPLANATION:

For you to be able to take action you must overcome 

fear.
Fear paralyses initiative,kills the imagination,stops us from 
moving,kills initiatives.
Fear kills enthusiasm
Fear destroys self-control.
Do what fear said you should not do.
Fear is dangerous.
If you try nothing you will achieve absolutely nothing.
Fear breeds procrastination
The fear of failure is one of the greatest guarantees of failure in this world.
It is not a crime to fail.
There is the fear of failure
There is the fear of rejection
You must kill fear;you must deal with fear
Fear creates big doubt
we must break free from the hold of fear.
Do what you fear and the death of fear is certain

 SAM ADEYEMI

HIDING LOCKS AND HIDING MYSELF

HIDING IS WHAT I AM DOING RIGHT NOW.

IT'S BEEN ALMOST 3 WEEKS NOW THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN TO WORK.
 I ONLY WORKED LIKE 2 DAY SINCE THE BEGINNING OF THE SCHOOL.

I SUDDENLY DID NOT FELT WELL IN MY HEAD. I COULDN'T SLEEP. IT WAS SO BAD THAT I HAVE TO CALL THEM AND TOLD THEM I WAS IN A VERY BAD MOOD SINCE MY DAD DIED.

I WENT TO MY GP AND HE GAVE ME FIRST 2 WEEKS BUT BEFORE THE END  I STARTED TO FEEL MORE PAIN IN MY TUMMY SO I WENT BACK AND MY GP GAVE ME 3 MORE WEEKS.   MY FIBROIDS PAINS STARTED AGAIN JUST WHEN I CAME BACK.
SO BASICALLY I HAD 5 WEEKS FOR SICKNESS.

MY HOLIDAY WERE FOR 5 WEEKS.AND I SPEND 4 WEEKS IN CAMEROON. SO I AM HAPPY BECAUSE I HAD THEM BACK .....  THANK YOU GOD.

I NEED TO STAY AT HOME AND JUST RELAX.
 I THINK THE DEATH OF MY DAD DID AFFECT ME MORE THAN I THOUGH.
 PLUS IT WASN'T REALLY HOLIDAY FOR ME BECAUSE I SPENT ALL THE  TIME TO ORGANISE THE FUNERAL. PLUS WITH ALL THE DRAMA SURROUNDINGS THE ORGANISATION   (YOU NEED TO THINK ABOUT THE TRADITIONAL  ASPECT OF THE EVENT).

I DON'T FEEL THE NEED TO DO ANYTHING. EVEN  WITH  MY HAIR IT IS EASY BECAUSE I HAVE LOCKS BUT TO BE HONEST YOU CAN'T SEE THEM .LOL

SERIOUSLY IT'S LIKE THEY HIDING. I HOPE I WILL BE ABLE TO KEEP THEM  UNTIL DECEMBER ..... BUT WITH MY HAIR I DON'T KNOW.
 AND I HAVE ANOTHER PROBLEM HOW I WILL BE ABLE TO " UN-LOCK THEM" I NEED NOW TO LOOK AT SOME TUTORIALS BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO BREAK MY HAIR WHEN THAT TIME WILL HAPPEN.

SO ME AND MY LOCKS ARE HIDING FROM PEOPLE AND I THINK THAT'S COOL BECAUSE WE REALLY NEED TO REST.LOL

MY HAIR FOR THE FUNERAL

 BECAUSE MY DAD DIED 4 DAYS AFTER MY ARRIVAL I  HAD TO CHANGE MY PLAN FOR  THE WHOLE HOLIDAY.

 FOR ME IT WAS JUST THAT I HAD TO BURY HIM LIKE QUICKLY ( 2 WEEKS MAYBE?????/)  DON'T LAUGH I WANTED JUST TO AVOID THINKING ABOUT IT TOO MUCH.

PLUS MOST OF THE TIME WHEN I AM GOING TO SHOPPING I KNOW WHAT I WANT TO SPEND AND BUY. BUT FOR FUNERAL ................
IT IS NOT THE SAME THING ESPECIALLY WHEN MY DAD HAD MADE SOME SUGGESTIONS THAT WE MUST  FOLLOW WITHOUT DISCUSSION..

MY LITTLE NIECE MADE THEM IN ONE HOUR.

IN CAMEROON FUNERAL INVOLVE THE WHOLE FAMILY AND BELIEVE ME IT IS HUGE.
AS WOMEN WE HAVE TO FOLLOW SOME RESTRICTION ESPECIALLY THE HAIR. TECHNICALLY I MUST HAVE CUT OR SHAVE MY HEAD ( ONLY THE WIDOW AND THE DAUGHTERS ).

I HOPE SOMEBODY WILL BE ABLE TO TELL ME  MY REAL TEXTURE.

I DIDN'T WANT TO BUT THEY TOLD ME THAT I CAN WEAR A HAIRSTYLE WHICH WILL NOT REQUIRE A FASHION STYLE.
SO MUST OF THE WOMEN WHEN THEY DON'T WANT TO CUT THEIR HAIR, THEY JUST BRAID IT AND COVER  WITH A TRADITIONAL SCARF,

YOU HAVE TO DO IT AT LEAST 6 MONTHS. I OPTED FOR LOCKS. BECAUSE I KNOW THAT IT WILL BE EASY TO KEEP THEM 6 MONTHS.

THE PROBLEM IT'S THAT I JUST REALISED  THAT MY HAIR ARE NOT 4C SO TO OBTAIN GOOD LOCKS WILL BE DIFFICULT.

 IN THE BEGINNING,  IT WAS OK BUT THE MORE I WASH  MY HAIR  , THE MORE I REALISE THAT I CAN'T NOT LOCK IT PROPERLY.
NEVER MIND I WILL MANAGE TO KEEP IT THAT WAY THE BEST I CAN.

 AT THE END IT IS ABOUT HONOURING MY DAD.

I PLAN TO USE CASTOR OIL,  LEAVE IN CONDITIONER  AND SHEA BUTTER. I ALSO WILL ESSENTIALLY CO WASH IT.
 OF COURSE I CAN GO TO YOUTUBE TO LEARN HOW TO MAINTAIN MY  FRAGILE LOCKS.

BUT I REALLY NEED TO KNOW MY REAL TEXTURE. AGAIN I AM A LITTLE BIT LOST.

AFTER THE FIRST CO WASH MY SHRINKAGE AT ITS  BEST.LOL